January 2012
4 posts
and the day goes...
today went well. definitely ate off plan, but i didn’t binge again so that makes two binge free days in a row. this feels good even though i am kind of hungry. probably because i should be asleep. i will go to sleep. but writing is important. i have to keep the train heading towards the station. i really need to sleep.
love love love
y
today's food/exercise plan. (1.19.2012)
2 slim fasts (400 calories)
1 lean cuisine (~300 calories)
1 skinny cow bar (150 calories)
room for something else that i will update later.
i will do an exercise dvd of some sort. or quite possible run on the treadmill.
good.
woke up and weighed-in at 274.4. obviously that’s horrible, but earlier in the week i was weighing-in at almost 280, so this is good. i’m trying to get down to 269-270 the day i leave. i’m hoping to be 235 when i get back. I’ll be in the great nation of Ghana for 16 weeks and in paris for one week, so if i lose a normal 2 pounds per week, i’ll hit the goal.
this is...
today is a beautiful day!
lots of good and bad moments, which are really what all days are composed of. but it’s how you handle things that counts, right? i think i handled things well.
today was supposed to be a water fast. but i needed to go to starbucks to study/do work so i allowed myself to have a drink and i did end up getting a huge ridiculous drink which justified by arguing that i wasn’t going to eat...
November 2011
5 posts
day 1.
coffee.
luna bar.
lean cuisine.
salad.
grilled chicken breast.
quinoa.
cranberry bar.
“Discontent is the want of self-reliance: it is infirmity of will.”
– rwe
the beauty of life.
this is manifesta number 1000, and that is perfectly okay.
i am allowing myself to become whole. i have remained in pieces for too long. i have indulged and still felt empty, i have hoped without truly hoping, i have dreamed in way that has only ensured that my dreams will remain as far a possible from my reality.
i am worthy and i am good. i know this, and as much as my self-esteem has plunged...
11.25.11
today is a practice day. i’m not giving myself a food plan, because nothing i have right now is that good for me, and i need to clean out the fridge and kitchen.
today i want to practice looking for cues so that i know for later how to react to being upset, cravings, etc.
today i want to enjoy the sun and get a lot of work done.
love and peace.
paths to success.
here are some ideas i have for avoiding failure.
morning and evening rituals.
wake up. kneel and pray. read ‘how to be okay’ aloud. go to the gym. come back, shower, do all of the good body things you should do. prepare coffee or tea. have a good day.
come to bed. more good body things. write down your plans for the next day. read eating mindfully. read a bible verse. pray for love...